(hell)titude!

i've been keeping this to myself for approximately 6 months now - that i don't quite like that particular person's attitude! i know it's not good to h.a.t.e someone, but to be frank..the feeling somehow mcm menjadi2 lately *sigh*  sometimes, i feel like telling it straight to her face that she has no manners and lack of respect towards others!

nobody's perfect, and that definitely includes me..but hello???? have some respect & courtesy will u?

don't know if i can (still) tolerate such behaviour in the near future!

waiting is about having patience...

went for the scheduled BETA blood test yesterday morning. had to wait for almost 3 hours just to take the test, and another 10+hours to get the result... which came in negative :(  

seriously...I somehow knew it's going to be negative because the doctor pun mention chances of me being pregnant 20-80 because of the blockage. But still, being a cry baby...I broke down (almost) immediately! Dont know why, but I was wayyy emotional this time *sigh*

got the call when we were outside, so there goes our dinner date! was so not in the mood to do anything or eat anything...so he decided to take a drive to i-city seksyen 7...saje bawak cry baby tgk lampu, hehe... (p/s: enjoyed looking at the lights though, cantekk...)

so once we got home, took a looooonnnggg warm shower..solat..and recite Surah Yassin - felt better after that although lembab jugaklah telekung (emo!!) 

I was just about to go to bed when he hug me and whispered "Its ok sayang, u still have your baby bessshaq  who loves u no matter what..."  that, I will remember the rest of my life...tq for the unconditional love & support dear! InsyaAllah, you'll be a daddy someday...love u loadss!

setan bertopengkan manusia!!!!

it's so damn heartbreaking!!! especially when I am struggling like hell trying to conceive :( how can a human being do this? binatang pun sayangkan anak ok!!!!! even if you dont want the child, dont la ever do like that! the child is INNOCENT!!!!!!!! almost everday ada je kes buang baby! If the baby survives - fine! at least there'll be someone who will  take good care of the child! ni tak....takde hati perut langsung!

im sure every single person who reads the article menyumpah2 setan tu! 

poor baby, may u rest in peace sayang..Al-fatihah!